An Addicts Crave for The Crave - *Wedding Season*

The daily grind in a single life is a brutal one... Lets get down to the GRIT right now... Being single isn't what it's all cracked up to be. Ha- some of you may disagree and say I'm an idiot, "Live it up while you can!" "Take advantage of what you have at the single life! YOU HAVE PLENTY OF TIME!" And honestly, yeah, you are so right, RIGHT?! All the time in the world. But that's the principle itself that people overshoot... People think it's all about--->TIME. It's really not! WHY is that even important? Yes of course, take time to find the right one, yada yada yada... Got that... I'm on it. BUT, I'm tired of hearing people say- "You have plenty of Time! You're in such a great spot! ohhh man live it up!" Well- I've had my 25 years of dating. Over it man. For real it's gettin old! It's not about the fact that I have plenty of Time, I just want what I crave. What we ALL Crave in a sense. Like any addict, or really any crave for that matter- When you're hungry, you crave food, and thirsty- Drink yeah? Like an addict without his squeeze for the day, I need my squeeze. I Guess this is me fessing up thanks to my good Man Robert Palmer-

"Might as Well Face it You're addicted to Love!"

Ha in the song it says "Yeah You Like to think You're immune to the stuff" - yeahhhh That's the thought in the single scene... Right? You are good to go. But I straight up Crave it, Crave the company of someone else. Peeps that are in relationships think, "frick, I really wish I could have a go at the single scene for a while!" --- It's selfish and you suck. Ha for real man!!! I guess I can understand MAYBE you have commitment issues and aren't ready for a Relationship more than what you and your dog share- but if You're in one and don't want to be, You probably don't know how good you have it! You're thinking about YOU YOU YOU, and Not realizing you are already getting YOU YOU YOU. The thought to go Hang with Your BROS! Or Your GIRLS! TIGHHHHHHHHT! Ha- no- It sucks. I've been in it realllll Heavy for a long bit. The majority of the passed 2 1/2 years I have been single. I've been super grateful for the relationships I've had within, and truly learned the most from those people in those times, and the most about me. Not ever searching for something to do, no searching for a date, you always have someone, you always have someone to take care of, and someone to take care of you. Of course if your significant other isn't meeting the criteria, you don't get along and you're not happy sure, skedaddle- but really it is so much easier to have someone than it isn't. The only thing people really look forward too about being single is the random hook up, and feeling wanted by more than one person of the opposite sex at one time..? Tight, soooo we are all in High School again I guess... Yes, I'm venting because I feel like there are some amazing people that really close themselves off because they think they have it good in the single life, which really is just dandy and peeps can choose to do what they want for sure. It's just frustrating, not only for me, but to witness others that give it all they have, and could be a PERFECT match for someone, yet they don't get the opportunity because the thought of a relationship doesn't fit in THEIR, or their friends genre at the moment. I really have dated pretty hard, and do pretty hard. If you and I have ever dated, you know, I'm pretty bold, and sometimes come off really over the top. I'm bold and blunt and am not really worried about what peeps think. Probably not good at times, but I do what I do because I feel like I'm better than A GAME to be played, or I know better than to play it. OR I really like using my brain and my voice, the combination, mixed with emotions called COMMUNICATION. It's Tight. NO BS, No Games, Just straight Honesty. I'll be honest, If I need too, I could play the game, but I hate it, and I suck at things I don't like, This being one of them. Seriously, I consistently meet more and more people that genuinely impress me. Really, VERY FEW have really been impressive passed a first time meeting basis but there really are a lot of amazing people. I'm actually surprised at how many Quote unquote "catches" there are around. Serious Sam here. Really there is only a few things that do keep me dating... One of Which...

WEDDING SEASON

Most People HATE Wedding Season... And Sometimes I'll give off the same notion that I don't like it-(possibly out of desire to be cool like everyone else, ha) but really, I Love it. Yeahhhhppp. I love Wedding Season. Super inspired every chance I get to VICARIOUSLY live my life through a Newly wedded couple. Some people don't like that, I do. I'm a sucker for Love and Romance! Seeing one of my Best friends JD and His Wife talk at their wedding Dinner was so cool- listening to them talk about FALLING IN LOVE, and how they didn't know it could be that good... I felt it! It was legit! And that was only a glimpse. It's beyond inspiring. I can only hope that I have some sort of Love to share with someone someday. I Can't wait. YES I CAN WAIT TO FIND THE RIGHT ONE. Yes I press to get things going with meeting people and really "Getting to Know" the other person, but I can Wait for the right one... I'm sincerely pumped to have a special relationship for sure. I'm so stoked to find someone that I am super pumped on as much as they are of me. Someone that we are just Jazzed to kick it every chance we get. Like I said, I'm over the dating scene... Same old same old for the passed 10+ years here and I'm super over it. Ha- I wanna find a real person, that just has a heart of Gold. Lead by Compassion. I know I'm no perfect person and don't always have all my ducks in a row, but I'm trying, and I can't wait to find someone that inspires me to have them straight, and someone I can help as well. Someone I crave. Someone I want to be addicted too. If I die before I find that Significant other in my life- I hope at least people could know how I felt. I was once told

"Love Happens, So Let it."

I feel that same thing with a lot of things, going back to "TIMING" As I talked about at the beginning of this here gig. People put a time frame on things, a block on things to happen until a certain amount of something, or a destined number of dates before such things to come, or however many days, months, and years before things come to pass. STOP IT! It makes things fake at times, or just not YOU. Don't let the voice of critics paralyze You. Don't let other peoples routes determine how you live your life and the way you go. Love Happens in all sorts of Ways. Realize that You get what you give out- so allow yourself to be out there. Things come to those that go after them, same as those that stick their necks out more often than others. For myself, I'm ready for it, but I'm not Waiting. I'm addicted to the Chase. I'm addicted to the Crave.

Fresh Pair of Kicks- Metaphorically

Failure is so good. Losing is So good too. Not really. It totally Sucks... Failure blows, and so does Losing. Losing friends, Losing family, a game, a competition, a sock, Your car spot, a significant other... Losing is a bummer. Same as failure, though losing out feels like failure itself. Problem with it is... We gotta have it.

Old Shoes Suck... Or do They?

If we had a pair of shoes that never wore out, that always kept its grip, that always had its sole, that never smelled smelly, always looked and felt like a brand new fresh pair of shoes, We'd ALWAYS be reppin these SAME Kicks. You'd never have to get new shoes, and you'd always walk as you do with a brand new pair of kicks on your feet; A little pep in your step, a lean here or there, a smirk on your face and a feeling of confidence. You'd be so used to having the most legit kicks, if you ever got a scratch on them, It just might kill you. How would you adapt? But Old Shoes... My older kicks... Man.. They don't smell as good, or look as good, but with some wear on them, they feel so good! Ever played sports with brand new shoes or cleats? It freakin WRECKS You! Old Shoes are Broken in and it's like Home for your feet. And on top of that, they are like an addicts crave for drugs- they give you that desire for NEW for MORE for something Bigger, a better Hit, if you will. Problem with the old kicks... They are old kicks. You get wear and tear like crazy and crave the new, to be out and done with the old. Plus, your feet start adapting to these old broken shoes, the sole of your foot gets warped a little, your feet get rougher and you realize that these old kicks aren't what they used to be. Over time wearing old shoes wears on you period. Literally your feet like I said, and even more so on YOU. Your confidence is swayed a bit, because they don't look as good, you don't know if they'll hold up doing what you do, your mind is on other things than what you could be focusing on. You've had so many good times in these shoes you feel an attachment, almost a relationship, and you're afraid to abandon it. Old shoes are great, you learn a lot, do a lot and walk A LOT. Every once in a while... You just need new kicks.

Fresh Pair of Kicks

Drawing the metaphor here, I'm so all about my passed, people I've dated, things I've done, mistakes I've made, games/ competitions I've lost, accidents that have happened, body parts that I've hurt, those that have hurt me, and failures that I came through... I'm all about my Old Shoes. Every once in a while, it's time to step into some new kicks, and start walking another way for a bit. The definition of INSANITY is:

"Doing the same thing over and over again, expecting a different result

Sometimes it's all about a FRESH start. Febreeze brothers status in the which it's time to clean it up, pack it up and get going. The old smells, it's rough, it's sad, emotional, frustrating, full of let down, and over time false joy. Yes I love everything that has even happened to me in the last bit here- But Sometimes, it's just time to put on those new shoes, tie 'em up real tight and get bookin' it in another direction. I'm ready for a fresh start in my life personally. I'm stoked about the way life has gone, but I need a newness in there. I'm sure a lot of people feel that way at one time or another. If you do, don't hesitate to say see ya to the old shoes, you don't need to be where you've been, because

if you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always gotten.

My good friend Paul from the New Testament is one of the greatest poets of all time, one of the greatest orators as well I'm sure- and he wrote a great letter to his friends the Philippians and made mention of his thoughts on "New Shoes." Saying

"I count not myself to have apprehended: but this ONE thing I do, Forgetting those things which are behind, and Reaching forth unto those things which are before...Let us Walk By the same Rule..."

Today is Sunday, we can make the change now, so that tomorrow we are walking the way we need too. Don't be afraid to sacrifice what you have now, for what you really and truly want. Don't be afraid to let go of the daily, to achieve your goals and dreams. Don't be afraid to be kind, loving and charitable. Don't be afraid to be the best self you can be. Faith over Fear. Faith and Fear can't coexist. And when you choose to do something you're afraid to do, you get one of the coolest friends with you as you do it, ADRENALINE, which I deem a successful gig. Adrenaline is a feeling of escaping something you thought not possible. Impossible is only possible, if you say it is. Do what YOU desire. Do me a kindness.... Look up the video "What do you Desire?" on YouTube by Alan Watts. Be You and DO You. Put on a Fresh Pair of Kicks and get walkin'. Monthly Mind Vomit. Love Colton